I love going to bed.
Before you get carried away thinking this is going to get sordid, let me explain.
There’s a moment – when I slide my toes down to the end of the cool sheets, when I pull the light-as-a-feather doona up to my neck and rest my head on the soft pillow – when I’m in heaven.
It’s a moment when I reflect on how lucky I am to have a roof over my head, food to eat, and a healthy body. A moment when I think I love white sheets. How could you have any other colour? And there’s something about crisp cotton too. And the window being open and letting in the night air. And the rustle of the palm trees outside.
Last night I found myself sighing out loud. Actually it was more like a groan. A happy groan.
And the loved one looked at me over the top of his reading glasses and said, “What is your problem?”
I said, “I feel like a bear.”
I don’t look anything like a bear so why I said that I’m not entirely sure.
I think it was good to get the weight off my feet. I think I was saying I felt comfortable in my own skin (I think that's bear thing, don't you?). I think I might even have been suggesting I wanted to hibernate for a while. Whatever. I love my bed.
And now to something more serious, which is still, in a way, between the sheets. The sheets of both a book and a newspaper.
This morning in the paper I was reading about M.L. Stedman. In case you don’t know, M.L. Stedman is the author of The Light between the Oceans, which goodreads.com describes as “a captivating, beautiful, and stunningly accomplished debut novel – the story of a lighthouse keeper and his wife who make one devastating choice that forever changes two worlds.”
Stunning cover, by the way.
The success of The Light between the Oceans has propelled its little-known author into the spotlight, and the gist of the words in the paper was that the columnist had got wind of a 2008 anthology of short fiction published in the UK featuring emerging writers, and three of Stedman’s short stories. The columnist said that [with the success of the novel], “M.L. Stedman would probably like to forget her first published stories. However…”
This suggestion worries me. Why would M.L. Stedman like to forget about these stories? It seems to me to be a respectable and honourable thing. I mean we’re talking about being published in an anthology of short fiction with five other emerging writers, with a launch and readings and champagne (I’m guessing, I wasn’t there), not about being published in some second rate, little-known, seedy magazine. Why would this be something that M.L. Stedman would like to forget about?
All my stories, everything I’ve ever written, are a part of me, a part of what makes me the writer I am today. And, yes, some of them are best not brought to light, they’re certainly not memorable, but I am not, I repeat not, and won’t ever be – let’s be clear about this – ashamed of them.
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